I’ve thought a lot about how I wanted to write this. But first I have to ask for forgiveness. See, I’ve been living less than a totally authentic life and I feel like it almost took me down. Orlando and I have been living separately since 2020. We actually have been separated and really what I like to believe is living a lie. I always thought when I made more money and became financially independent I would leave my marriage. And I did become financially independent and still it wasn’t enough. It wasn’t enough because I wasn’t brave enough. I didn’t have faith enough in myself and I certainly didn’t love myself. And so I started on a journey this past year That I would love myself. That I would hold Grace for myself. That I would be the person I needed. And it led me to be finally free and brave enough to get divorced. And so I don’t really have any sad feelings anymore about this. I’ve grieved for a long time. I’m happy. I’m excited. For the first time in my life I am not dictated by the need to control the outcome and certainty. In fact, as my boys go out and start living their adult lives I feel just as excited to see where mine will lead. The best thing that came out of my marriage is my two loves of my life, Orlando and Christian. I will always be grateful I was given the opportunity to be home with them and raise them. And that’s exactly what I did. I am grateful none the less by the time and sacrifice I have spent in raising some pretty amazing children. So I just wanted to set the record straight, so there are no rumors, so that I can live my life in the authenticity I desire. Sometimes you can be sad for things how they worked out or how long it took but stop worrying about time and be grateful you followed a path that felt good to you in your soul and one that you know you deserve. Much love to all of us in this new year. Thank you to my dearest friends who have known this and kept my privacy. Who held space, who loved me. And to my sons, who have risen to the occasion of dealing with major life changes. But I have a feeling releasing all of us from secrets is best. Peace, Love and Freedom ~Kim
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